My Condolences

The sanctuary where our love used to thrive now stands empty -- a mausoleum for two souls that were once intertwined. It is with a heavy heart that I pen down these words, not as a celebration of what we had but a testimony of an incredible connection that time and waves corroded. 

My condolences to me, for giving up on you because you gave me no other choice. 

My condolences to me for all the promises you made and broke. 

My condolences to me for losing my bestfriend and my human diary. 

My condolences to me because all of the butterflies in my stomach have already died. 

My condolences to me for choosing to let go of the person I wanted and prayed for. 

My condolences to you for losing me. 

My condolences to you for all the decisions that you made and regretted about us. 

My condolences to you for the future you planned that eventually became blurry. 

My condolences to you for missing out on how beautiful our life could have been. 

My condolences to you for I'll be your one that got away. 

My condolences to us for the children we conceived and named in our minds but will never get to raise. My condolences to us for the plans and dreams we built together that will no longer materialize. My condolences to us for the adventures and places we wished to experience together. My condolences to us for the photos and videos that we won't get to show our future grandchildren. My condolences to us for all the countless memories that will eventually fade and be forgotten as we grow older. My condolences to us for the love that we shared and the stories that we won't ever get to tell the world. 

We parted, not with the fury of a storm, but with the quiet resignation of a setting sun -- an exquisite ending to a movie we once lived in. As one song goes, "Even the sun sets in paradise," It is with a gentle sigh that I close this chapter although it is by far my favorite one, turning the page firmly. Until then, my heart whispers a soft adieu, and I move forward, carrying the bittersweet symphony of a love that was beautiful and made me feel whole. 

Here's to not growing old together, to never knowing the answers to all our what ifs and what could've beens. Here's to the last chance that we didn't take...

As we grieve the loss of our love -- that once beautifully lived, please accept my sincerest condolences. I'm really sorry for our loss. My condolences to us.